I bounced back up!
I'm working part time at a school as the lunch lady. Hair net and all that goes with it! Funny thing is, I'm kinda grooving on it. No stress of pissed off parents, pissed off bosses, or getting pissed on, puked on, sneezed on, coughed on and shit on by the specials of the world.
I have decided to return to college and finish getting that degree. I'm not sure I have enough brain cells left to finish this project I started oh so many years ago.
It seems like a lifetime ago when I was chugging away on the Dean's list, when all hell broke loose in my life. It seems like a lifetime ago that my biggest concern had to be keeping him alive, keeping him at home, keeping him on his ranch.
I look back on those years and think.. WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING BITCH.. why the hell did you not just put your foot down and say enough is enough.. we are going to Kansas? Oh yea.. that little thing called love..
So, tomorrow I am going looking for an apartment that is rent assisted. I know I'm too old to work full time and go to school full time. I need to figure out what fits into my budget.. and work toward that with what I have.
I'm kind of excited about the future ahead of me. I'm no longer sad about the past that chases me. I can out run that sucker.
The red jar gets lippy, I now can sit him in the closet and not feel guilty. If he taunts me from inside the jar, I can simply stand up, walk over, tell him I love him.. and then.. shove his lippy ass in the closet for a time out while he thinks about what he did!
So.. that being said, I hope you all join me for this journey down life's road. What I will be when I grow up, we don't know.. but we all know. it won't be boring..
Thanks for hanging with me..
Rays of Light from Judy Susan